Thursday, October 19, 2006
Whiner
At first, she didn't want to broadcast it to the world. This is too shallow. Half of the nation is dying of hunger for godsake. But she doesn't care about that at this moment. All she wants to do is to release her thoughts.
She knows she doesn't want to stay where she is right now. Every bone in her body is despising each morning when she has to drag her feet to where she is expected to be. She hates his guts. She used to look up to him. She used to see him as a great man with a grand philosophy in life that she thought she must follow. But not anymore. Because in the process, he tarnished her values. He tops her list of "Most Hated Person in the World". And "hate" is such a strong word for her. She doesn't want that.
Now that she had finally decided that it's about time to leave, he is making it even harder for her. She doesn't get it. Fear of not finding another place for her out there is handful enough without him emotionally torturing her for moving on. She is now slowly forgetting her reasons for leaving. Suddenly, she gets tired of rationalizing her actions. She feels like she's making a blind decision. But this was not the case before.
She's just hoping against hope that she's doing the right thing.
She knows she doesn't want to stay where she is right now. Every bone in her body is despising each morning when she has to drag her feet to where she is expected to be. She hates his guts. She used to look up to him. She used to see him as a great man with a grand philosophy in life that she thought she must follow. But not anymore. Because in the process, he tarnished her values. He tops her list of "Most Hated Person in the World". And "hate" is such a strong word for her. She doesn't want that.
Now that she had finally decided that it's about time to leave, he is making it even harder for her. She doesn't get it. Fear of not finding another place for her out there is handful enough without him emotionally torturing her for moving on. She is now slowly forgetting her reasons for leaving. Suddenly, she gets tired of rationalizing her actions. She feels like she's making a blind decision. But this was not the case before.
She's just hoping against hope that she's doing the right thing.
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namputsa...isa pa ngang san mig jan?